两天

剩两天真的
不舍得
我又要一个人了
会孤单会寂默一个人的生活要开始了
会哭 虽然三个星期又回来一下下
好像没回嘛
所以这次要过去又要半年
半年很漫长也会发生很多事
2012 好的事情会发生在我身上吗
希望吧
PRAY HARD
看不到弟弟妹妹不安心
只是觉得看不到他们
有没有被欺负
看不到
他们还大考
能吗两个人
会祷告他们两个人读好好的
考好的成绩
我也是
我想回去不洪洪烈烈的生活
我要一个人 不要刻意改变我自己
没朋友又怎样 照活啊!!!
加油!!!! 2012!!!
过了几天也很少上线部落格了..^^

要回了

回了..
怕的心情哦..
要改哦..
不要怕任何的人...事情
你可以的!!!
加油!!!
你就是你....
不要为了任何人改变...

沉重的心情

表弟来了两天
仅仅的两天满舍不得的
因为很好玩
有话题
一起笑一起逛街一起看恐怖电影
很舍不得一下
他们有他们的生活
我有我的
我弟有他的生活
不一样
只是两天就好像连在一起那样
很温暖
很温馨
以前的我
每当他们回家时
就很痛苦地想
怎么办大家又要过自己生活的步伐了
看到他们在我家坐过的椅子
几伤心一下的
但我知道我看不久他们做过的椅子
因为我也要回去我的生活
不在家
应该是好事啊
但莫明其妙地还是伤心
这时的我
在想..我好想回到那种生活
是我觉得我自己变了吗
好像是的真的变了
如果还是以前的我
我就不会想回到以前的生活
我要改回去
一定
累了
就做我自己
明天他们回家了
对自己说声加油吧 我放假..他们也一样嘛
再来玩咯..
只是可怜我的老弟
没伴玩
希望没什么...一起读书吧^^

期待

不去期待
也许伤害会减少
也许得到得更多
对吧
可是谁要教教我如何不去期待
不懂WOR
真的叻
现在我真的知道期待是一件痛苦的事
曾经的我好爱期待
下一秒会发生什么
得到什么
但、原来不去期待也许更好

我就是我

现在两点多了..
睡不着啊..~~~~
我就是我
看了我最爱的潘玮伯
又爱上他
他的戏
红线...嘿嘿嘿...
我会HO..
一样HO...命中注定的那个人紧紧牵着...^^

孤单的我

下午丫..拿了自己买的生日熊
盯了好久..
没想别的..
就想生日熊有两只一起多好丫..
呵呵..
我的熊上有着20 JULY
ERM。在想另一只几时才会在我亲爱的熊熊旁边呢??
两只熊会有共同点吗...
月份??JULY??
20??日期???
有一样的很巧噢...
20岁之前快快出现吧..
他??哈哈

a little emo..

erm..dunno why..emo..feelling not so good o...
haiz..
coz,,,all finish stpm??!!
ohno..why?
coz tats is my before de life??
and i miss it??finish jor..all candidates...
erm...feel sad?? coz no exam??? no together?? no enter university...?? tats is my dream..but now i am a teacher..
although enjoy my life there..but tat is a part of life tat i missing it..how..
feel emo now..i missing the half year life....
erm..who can an wei wo...
but tats is my choice..before i become a teacher..
when somebody say..u..shirley..actually escape from stpm de...y i feel so sad...and speechles..
but if i stay...my future not so guarantee..my mum wil cry dao..haaha...her dream ma..
my bro soon..will become teacher also.haha..coz sure..she wan her three child become teacher..haha..
haiz.nvm la..enjoy my life bah..although i cannot have my life in univesity//
and soon i will change my campus to new de..the biggest ipg in malaysia..wkakka..haha^^
haiz..write write..my english really become noob..noob si..!! ohno!! cannot..i pay all back to my muet teacher..ohno..haha
thursday got appoinmenet with friend..^^ saturday too...but i will back tuaran soon..how..i miss my home o..T.T
liu xing...my beautiful star..will it out on tonite...?? all say tonite will out..i need make my wish de.ahha^^

lyrics..my feeling??haha
一直在同样的天空下
一直过着同样的一天
除了你不在了以外
剩下的什么也没变
我以为我已经放手了
一点都没剩下呢
不是的 不是的
我还没有完全的放开你
好想你 好想你啊
我真的好想你啊
我每天一个人
无数次的在心里叫着你
好想你 好想你啊
我真的好想你啊
我像是习惯了似的
天天在喊着你的名字 今天也是..

真心的朋友

朋友真的..分很多种
我有点伤心呢.
以为我新交的朋友好好噢!!
就那么一个...天真的我,以为遇到了第二个真心的朋友...
但那真的是错误的开始
错到不知是真的再乎我才到处逼人吗??
我就好像在她的控制中
什么事情都要跟她说
不说生气呢...
我呀..莫名其妙罗..eheh
很没道理地给她骂..
说对不起的是我??!!
为什么..
我还大她一岁呢..
我开始怕她生气.
手拿着电话不放..
怕啊..
怎么办呢..
只好顺着她的意走..
哇..
还是怕怕 我还哭了呢
是给她的话语伤害了..深深地伤害了..
那痕疤不会不见吧.
现在的我开始为我..为她祈祷
希望..
其实我也有错..不懂得反丫..默默地被控制住
不要!!!我不要改变原来不会玩电话的我
我妈妈知道了会如何呢,,??
我不该!!!
但此时的我发现了上帝给我的另一件礼物
一个好朋友
她安慰着我..扶着我..
在我失去好朋友的同时..得到了一个好朋友
一生中就她了和慧
我们不需太多语言..不需任何的要求..
只有真心.
两颗真心我会保护好你们和我的心..
希望我们大家能打拚到老..哇哈哈
我们前途一样噢...很巧吧
真的爱你们..
伤害我的就随她吧...
我会爱惜上帝给我的真心...谢谢你上帝

今晚的月食..看到了...
美美..还是我最爱的月亮
跟爸弟弟妹妹看了...
拉着他们看的....哈哈.......
这次跟他们一起看的...
不久后.又自己在外面...
一个人..看着月亮..
真的喜欢!!
但此时的我,看到了在旁边的星星..
几时开始喜欢星星的呢??
就是那个时候吧...苦苦等的我...
现在..刚刚就想和我最爱的星星说声再见
看星星不再为了那个时候...
但好像不能噢...
真的喜欢怎样呢??...
如果，今晚可以给我看到流星雨，我一定会许愿的...
但流星雨好像过几天后....希望我等到他/它...
我的星星..等你噢...不管多久一定等到你来敲敲我的门..^^

乱写的心情

ERM....
现在半夜了
跟某人乱聊到现在
哈哈..
对他无言...
乱讲话的一个人..
但是奇怪..又和他聊得下MO...
真的无言..哈哈哈
明天要去找书
书书书.....你在哪里啊???!!!
真希望这里的图书馆多点书,多点人..
都冷冷的..
剩三个星期我要回去了!!!
有点怕怕
我要该变噢
不再...
什么都不再...
改改自己...
变冷冷的...不会受伤
读完我的书...
过我要活的生活..
不受人控制...
不受心被自己控制...
讲什么呢..就是那个MAIN POINT..哈哈
要放弃才能得嘛...哈哈..
查了聊天记录...害...我看不可能了....

呵呵。。我回来了

ERM....19.11.2011... 下午两点多的飞机....KK国际机场...wow..big international airport..haha^^
第一次自己坐着飞机...自己CHECK IN
哈哈!!!笨笨的我,什么都不懂,就朋友教我的...
哈哈!!可爱的我叻...不要脸的我...哈哈哈...
到了飞机场...哇!!! 又是那帮疯疯的朋友,大喊我的名字..雪梨~~~~很想你啊!!!!!! hug yi xia..hha^^
ABU!!! 需要这么大反应吗??!!! 好像才几个小时不见....哈哈
可爱的朋友们!!!
回来了,想不到的我..
老妈老爸弟妹全接我叻...
不用意外....是我这个不要脸的....叫他们全来接.....我第一次嘛...哈哈哈
回到家叻..当晚去了新的购物商场...害~~ 小叻...是我开始比较了吗
就是了!!!! 我开始比较了KK的多大,多美..
老妹听了就说再讲KK试一下!!! 哈哈...
我很想那里叻~~~
是因为想念那里还是人??? 不清楚EH....呵呵呵
他还没回EH。。还在那里待着
算了...
我希望噢这个放假过得有意义一点
所以一天一天好像不错一下
去了我从来没去的图书馆EH。。哈哈
找我的书啊以为去那边玩么。。
要不然去看戏...哈哈...
对了,不能停止聚会嘛
我很抗拒去那里的青团....还气死老妈呢!!
但是多亏耶稣...
我开心了..
会继续崇拜青团....
感谢主...^^
ERM。。在家一个星期多了买了好多东西
出去又出去
半年的我以为不会生病了
到家了..死罗!!! 生病了...
不可以啊。。哈哈
明天我会怎么过??哈哈。。加油罗。。
又要回去了又不舍得了
偷偷哭了噢...shhh..哈哈
学会坚强吧我...明年到后年都是这样了...直到毕业为止。。^^
GAMBATEH NEH 亲爱的自己....哈哈
对了!!!减肥噢
瘦了才有资格寻找那个他。。哈哈
想恋爱了我
给妈妈知道??!!! 哈哈....一定死...HEHE。。

university life for half year

really long time no update my blog lor..haha..
awesome here..whaha
i live at here for half year..miss my family..my home...
really learn so many thing here..
i change a lot too..
not like before de me..^^
i become a lot here..haha..
just awesome!!!
amazing..i enjoy the life at here..
love it..and until now..i can't imagine i live at here for half year liu..
haha..amazing life here..i need for 5 years again..hihi..
jia you..pray..
God will at my beside de..^^

leave hometown..home...

soon..leave home soon..wat to do..haiz..
need depend on myself lor..really...wash cloth myself....good relationship with friends..cook water..sick..take care by myself..go buy thing..my self..go bank my self...make decision my self..
all my self..
can i adapt to tat environment?? i wonder..but i rethink..tat is not the life i wish before??like to independece...now really become reality..leave home for around 5 years..degree...academic..there...can i do it..
i hope now..God at my sides...
always listen to i pray..^^
i hope someone help me..
tat is God...
will pray hard de..^^
i can adapt to tat envinronment...!!!
can i???
i think sure ba..the answer!!!!
jia you!!!!
future teacher

start my journey..

my future guarantee now..
i success!!!!!!
best gift to my family..
but...i afraid now..
really afraid...T.T
wanna cry..
coz i need leave home...family and friends..!!!
i need go study at sabah...
family will not arrive in one minute...
how..i need to start my journey by my own foot..
own!!!
haiyo...
i need to live on foreign land for five years half....
and now..i dunno..wat shold i package..should do...
really blank...
T.T
stress begin to come....
before i success in final step..i so hope i will success..but now success..i afraid ..and wan to escape..
but i know..i wont escape..
tell myself to be brave..
u r a brave girl..u can affort anything in my life..!!!
shirley..try ba....!!!
hope God will give me guidance..
i need HIM...
pray.....

Happy Mother's day

today..mother's day..
no gift for mum..but i try no make her sngry..
i am a girl tat dunno how to show my love to my parents.
and mym mum also a person that do not like to celebrate any events..maybe include mother day
but..today we all go church for mother day
i know ..i know..she maybe care about this day.
but..i promise..mum..i will celebrate with u when i growth up..
i know..
u wan me become a successful person..
when i gwoth up..i will pay back to u..
when i graduate..i will pull u take photo with me...
sure...i will do tat...u will happy rite??
erm..i think tat is the best award should give u..appreciate u..
mum..i kinow u so hard tat take care for me for 19 years..
i know..all i know..
i will pay back to u....no doubt de..!!
God..pls bless my mum healthier and healthier....
until i gwoth...until i old...
really hope..pray..^^
and my dear God...can u give a present to me in this month..so i can give this gift to mu mum...she sure happy...
dear God..u know wat i am taliking,rite??
pray..and thanks if u bless me..
Happy mother's day..mum...
love forever...

A cool night..

a cool nigh...wanna midnight liao.hha..today the gantian for labour day..no schooling..tomolo school liao..feel wan to escape this kind of life..wan a life tat without help of parents..
dun know why suddenly so high..
i still think i hope tat i can get the chance i pursue on 26-4-2011..
haiyo..i can get this chance or not..no confidence..coz result will be out soon in THIS MONTH...i hope the result can out in the time that suit me...
i wan success..i dun wan to pursue again.this is because it is my last chance for this year...haiyo..pray pray and pray...
afraid and pray,,,pls....bless me..God..i hope u will guide me..^^thanks...

公主和王子结婚了

29-4-2011..
FULL OF HISTORY DE DAY..
WHOLE LONDON CRAZY OF ONE EVENT..
王子和平民公主结婚了..
幸福的感觉.
呵呵呵呵.............
我又犯白痴梦了..
好想嫁个有那么一点点钱的老公...
差不多就OK了...
不必太富有啦....
白痴!!!哈哈.....
但想想也没错嘛.......
王子都爱上平民公主了.
我有机会哦!!!!哈哈哈哈.............
不要脸!!!!!!!!!!!!
那个公主漂亮,高贵,优雅,气质,本事,.....
就像我们看过的芭芘公主..
不愧人气高呀!!!
高过戴安娜哦(王子的母亲)...
也不愧王子爱上了她....
不错!!!
他们谈了10年的恋爱...
长久哦......以后会很幸福吧...
祝他们永远幸福快乐..........
对于我自己呢...........
也希望我找到我的那个他......
和他幸福的活到老!!!!!!!!!!!!FIGHTHING!!!!

try all my best ..^^

today try my best le...wait for the result...
in May..i know the result..if success..thanks God..if no.haiz...nvm..i continue my lives now...
i really try my best le..really..i hope i already get this chance..
hope now!!!!
and i meet aboy..two boy...and about five other girls..
some from bintagor..sarikei..sibu.....bintulu and many...
we meet and talk to each other..
hope we all can get this chance..all success..^^
God..pls help me ome more times...i already walk along so many step..
final step also...i just hope that result will like as i want...
i hope!!!!!!today waste my mum money too..so i need success!!!
in the interview..i already try my best...performance well..i think..
hope!!!!God..pls help me..^^
thanks..^^

Jia you tomolo

tomolo is my only chance..
i hope i can take this chance good and confidence..
i willing to get this chance so much..
that is my dream..and further my studies..
really hope about that...i will pray hard..
i already success for one times..tomolo my last step to achieve succeed...pls..
God..i will pray hard and hope u will give me guide and performance well tomolo..
really hope it now!!!!!
i wan to say jia you for myself...jia you!!!
u can do it well..!!! u are mature enough..cannot lose..!!!!!!
God..pls give me some guidance..thanks..^^
tomolo last step..jia you!!!!!!!

Yeah

不久前跨出的第一步...
成功了..
但只成功一半哦..
希望来临的那天...我会成功....
共有三步要走..
成功了第一步,意外地成功..
惊喜呀!!呵呵...Thanks for God..^^ really thank you..^^
第二步要靠自己咯..
如果成功第三步...没问题了
还有时间...
努力加油第二步...
成功了就YES!!!
加油!!还有时间....
上帝请您保佑我让我can表现好一点..
谢谢..^^

my shoes shoes..

high high de..haha..^^
like it..^^
but afraid to fall..lol..

Pray..^^

做出了第一步
交出了第一步
走出了第一步
剩下的一切交给上帝
求主帮帮我吧
我真需要你
依靠你
上帝的旨意
我顺从
不再反抗
父母,家人
上帝将交给我的命运
我会实现,执行.....

change...

突然觉得一切都在变...
怎么了...
我也在变的当中吗...

Meet up with true canadians ^^

A nice day..
when i go into our MUET teacher house..
surprise..!!
got two foreign ppl...
both with white skin ..white hair..
wow..my feeling tat time..wow...international level..
real experience...
after hear wat had MUET teacher say..they both alomost 60 or 70 years old..
wow..so surprise...coz they look too young..
they have been travel for three months along the tokyo..
next destination are Thailand..Bangkok..Hong Kong...and return their hometown..
MUET teacher give time to us chat with her..
initially..we are so shy..
she start her topic..
then..we ask her question..
she say she got three child..
two daughter..one son..
five gandchild!!!
and lives in canada..
but not capital..far away from there..i think..coz actually i not so understand to her means..haha..
and she say before travelling..she is a traders who sells her home-cooked food...
and have small house..^^
a nice person..and friendly..
after tat..i ask her a question..
"where u being for before come to Malaysia.."
she answer me tat she and her husband travel at many places and stop at tokyo..and then came malaysia...
wow..
haha..
and i teach her i love u in chinese..
i say "i love u" in chinese pronounce is "wo ai ni"..
she can speak it well..!!!^^
and she learn it ...
and she say it to our MUET teachers..^^
haha...fun...^^
really happy chat with her..
before we back home..she give us a face to face goodbye..
and say "thanks you,nice to meet u" and give a big big hug..^^
and..and..she advice us study hard..!!so touch when i listen to her advice..
she say her experience too..^^ and wish we can continue our lifes happily..and goodluck for our whole life..^^
happy experience..
although just see them for once..
i hope they can enjoy themself..
and dun forget us...
i hope i can see them again..^^
if got change..we hope we can meet again and be a good friends..^^
no matter wat their ages..^^
miss them ^^
thanks you for give us a nice day..^^

Alone valentine"s day...

tomorrow...valentine"s day..
but..for 19 years liao..still alone..
dun know where is "his"...haiz..=(
nvm la...
be happy..one for valentine"s day ..nice too..^^
wish myself happy valentine"s day...
^^

starting

a new day??a new start??
a new....??
can i start my journey from tomorrow....new day..??
may be can..may be cannot..
in my heart..
so afraid to start a new point until final...
i not so confidence to walk along my journey...
then how????
I pray hard....
i hope i can start it...
u can do it..!!!

for my best friend since 9 years ago..^^

今天到了好朋友的家..
一坐就聊到了未来,老公类型,OJIBALA的什么都聊
要不是新年
应该会花上数个小时吧....哈哈
HAIZ..
她呀..是COLLEGE学生
所以放假时间不一样
本来我们学校3月放假但她没回
她的放假在4月呀
会很想念她吧
记得去年的半年来
我们各奔各路
我上FORM SIX她到COLLEGE
每次分开又聚
心挺累一下
有时等上10多个星期
挺苦一下的
今年的我们将会更忙各的了
我今年大考
她回来的时间又不一样
会没时间一起聊聊吧
没关系
保持联络..wish我们的友谊长长久久^^
朋友,记得我呀
相信你
是你先主动和我当好朋友到现在..thanks you..friend..^^
we9年了吧^^
jia you..^^

FIREWORK

FIREWORK..
a song of "firework" is my favourite..^^
nice and many many encourage me de one song..^^

今天团拜了一整天
不错的经验
最后一次的中学团拜
OK啦
明年彻底毕业了也许没机会了吧
虽然是用车
但那些汽水零食蛋糕塞进肚子不得了啊
nvm..once in a year..lol....
happy chinese new year to myself..^^
have a nice year..hope everything will be my way..^^

除夕夜的夜晚...
被无聊蒙蔽了...
现在是10.30PM...
等待着和家人放烟花的时间--12.00呀!!!
还有两个钟头...
这时的我在听着杨宗伟的"洋葱"...
一层一层地剥开你的心........
外面的邻居小孩正热闹地跑呀跑...
不知不觉中感到孤单...
诗巫就只有我们一家人..
其他亲戚在别的地方
希望明天初一大年开心...
永远开心...
今年要顺利哦....

blablabla..

now..21.45pm..16.1.2010..
wanna sleep liao..coz tomorrow need schooling again..
after open school..wow..so fast...two weeks pass like tat..
CNY coming up..i will stop buying clothes and some accessories..
this is becoz this year,2011 i buy the most among my family members...
i buy some necklace,clothes,belt and..i plan to buy a pretty pretty shoes..high high de o..haha...like a princess shoes..

last few days..my "biao jie" came to my house with her boyfriend..haha..sweet in my eyes..maybe a couple no need to show off tat they are in sweet period..
a couple with high academic qualification..with smart brain..is tat a really sweet couple??for me..tat is the truth la..dun know others opinion...
in my eyes,they are so great and so smart..haha..no need so
wish i could find someone like tat too..haha....

jia you..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!